i feel separate. from my body, from my thoughts, from the people around me. i have moments of togetherness, of being a part of it, but for the most part i feelĀ disassociated from everything. i’m not sure what to do about that or even if i want to do anything about it. it stops me from experiencing things to the full and while i’m sure those closest to me recognize it… no one says much at all. i run in to this wall when it comes to certain situations, don’t know what to do next but i’m not particularly upset by it either. i sort of shrug my shoulders and take a seat. no big deal. that worries me more than anything. the apathy.